A Work In Progress

          What in the world am I doing? Over the past month since I started homeschooling Grace and Isaiah I have second guessed myself more than once. I have let the enemy enter my thoughts and tell me that I am not patient enough, smart enough, wealthy enough, or organized enough to home school my children. Well, it's true. I am probably not enough of any of those things but I am courageous enough! I took the leap of faith and now I must work on my follow through. I love being with Grace and Isaiah everyday but I get frustrated with not only them but with my self as well. Some mornings are a struggle to even get out of bed but I manage to do so. As much as I want to say it is for them, it is not. It is for God. God has called me to make this special, out of the ordinary, courageous transition and I will continue to be obedient.
            Our home school is not everything I want it to be and our family has a lot of work to do on our attitudes, our character, and our relationship with Jesus but I know that my first step was being obedient and my second step is remaining courageous enough to continue the journey. I feel there are still big changes to come in our little family but they will be what God wants for us and that is what is most important to me. I am excited to see Grace and Isaiah learn and grow everyday. Everyday is a little better than the last. I am excited to see what God has in store for us. I have learned to never say never. =)

A Leap of Faith

Sometimes it is hard to take the first plunge into the pool on that first somewhat "hot" day of summer but once you dive in it's the most refreshing thing you've felt in months. Ok, I'm lying... I hate the first plunge. We always go to the pool or the creek before it's hot enough outside and the water is freezing cold still and the sun is high in the sky but the cold water takes my breath away and I get out shivering everytime. My life is often times the same way but I often times allow my fears to talk me out of ever diving in,even though once I'm in, the water is fine and I have fun. It's always my fear of what's to come that changes the initial direction in which I felt God leading me to go. 

Homeschooling and Obedience

I said I wasn't going to write about this. I said I wasn't going to blog about this. I said I'm not going to even talk much about this. The truth of the matter is I must do all of the above. Writing is the single most destressing activity in my life. At this point, I can truly say that homeschooling is not stressful... In any of the ways I initially thought. I thought I would be stressed about disciplining them. I thought I would be stressed about their learning or lack of. I thought I would be stressed about their lack of social interaction. Nope, couldn't care much less about any of those issues at this point. I'm stressing over how they'll get a high school diploma (Grace is 7 and Isaiah is 6), I'm stressing over finding the right desks to accommodate the small space in which we call home, and I'm stressing over how I'm going to incorporate chores into their daily activities. Wow. God has done some amazing work on my heart over the last few weeks. He has laid out exactly what I need to be doing, what I need to spend money on and what resources I can utilize that are free. But most importantly He has showed me that I have amazing, talented, smart, insanely funny little beings with sparkly personalities and the spirits of lions. And I get to call them mine when in all actuality they are His. My journey will be long and I'm sure at times it will be treacherous but assuming Jesus does not return or call me home soon this will be a journey in which I will conquer the raging waters,  defeat the enemy, and declare victory in Jesus' name! 

But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. ~Matthew 6:33

Lesson of the month: Obedience

I am excited to see what God has in store for our lives!!! Never know what might be just around the corner...

My goal for this next half of this month is to focus on giving my kids to The Lord and letting Him do the amazing work in them that he so easily does all the time and all the times that I don't even recognize. My God truly is amazing.